I'm not sure why I gained week last week. I hit my 10,000 steps a day many days. My calories were close to being on target. My sleep was poor. Hmm.. maybe I do, but don't want to hold myself accountable.
I think this is the topic for the next logical weight loss podcast this week. We sugar coat things. We think they are not that bad. I'm going to go back and look at my calories (I have been religiously putting them into my fitness pal). I bet I'm worse than I remember. When I looked at my calories (see chart) I was over my goal 52% of the time. Hello?
Jimminy Crickey in Pinocchio had a song about your conscience being your guide. One verse was
Take the straight and narrow path
And if you start to slide
Give a little whistle! Give a little whistle!
And always let your conscience be your guide
Notice the path is narrow. The bible says that few people walk the narrow path. These means not everyone is doing it. It means it not easy. It's simple. Not easy. (eat less exercise more).
We all have a conscience. We know when we buy the Hostess Ho Ho's all the way to the checkout that these should not be in our cart. Instead of listening to our conscience, we choose what WE want. I want the Ho Ho. I just had an argument with my spouse and felt bad. Did I know this was wrong? Yes. My reason to make it ok? I'll walk it off tonight.
Tonight came. I walked. But not enough to burn of the Ho Hos.
So earlier in the week my weight was up to 214. The highest its been in a long, long time. I originally didn't log it here as I didn't want to see my name at the bottom of the competition list. But I wasn't hiding anything. Not logging my weight doesn't make it magically disappear.
My watch started to fit snugly. My pants were strained. I pulled muscles in my back.
I had pushed my weight issues away, and tried to fix my life by self medicating through food. But just like a boomerang, my weight issues came back to the front of my life. I've told myself before, if you're not hungry food is not the answer. We try to hit the snooze button on our weight loss. Thinking it will somehow fix itself. This brings up a great question. Are you ever happy after hitting the snooze button? I'm not. This means I have to hurry in the shower, or skip breakfast, or in general – be rushed. This is not a great way to start the day. You hear the alarm go off, and you're like, “I know, let's start the day with some procrastination.”
I ignored the little voice in my head. It typically is right. If I did what it says most of the time, I believe I would be lighter. Instead I do what I want. I pretend my weight problems can be “paused” but they come back.
Last night I set an alarm to GO to bed so I would get at least 7 hours. I turned off the alarm, and went back to my computer “for just another minute” that lasted 60. Today I am so tired, I reached for the mountain dew 290 calories in the wrong way. I didn't listen to my conscience. I did what I wanted instead.
So today I am telling myself to start listening to my conscience. Look at weight loss as a “one choice at a time” and the other thing I need to do is get some sleep.